Memoirs and Essays of the Vietnam War

 

                                         Introduction

 

The Vietnam War Memorial in Washington D.C, a wall of healing.

This week’s story is a collection of memoirs and writings from a group of people who were involved in or affected by the Vietnam War, in some fashion. Many of the people are my personal friends and/or people I have become acquainted with through my writing. There are thousands of other stories out there, and each one deserves to be heard.

This collection of stories includes authors, reporters, military veterans and civilians alike. Each story reflects an affect or experience of the Vietnam War by that particular individual, and yet at the same time common to many of us who were affected by or involved in the war.

Some people have multiple stories from those days. I, like many other military veterans of the war, also have memories as a civilian during our long military involvement in Vietnam. Many of my military experiences appear in some of my earlier blog stories.

I believe everyone from that era has a story to tell, and I am honored to pass on these memoirs and writings which have been shared with me.

I believe you will enjoy them.

 

 

                                      Joe Galloway

 

Joseph Galloway is an award-winning author, newspaper correspondent and columnist. His service during the Vietnam War earned him a bronze star for heroic actions during the battle of the Ia Drang Valley. Along with General Hal Moore, Joe co-authored We Were Soldiers Once, and Young along with the sequel We Are Soldiers, Still; A Journey Back to the Battlefields of Vietnam. I am proud to count Joe among my friends. He kindly provided this quote to set the tone for our article:

“We who have seen war will never stop seeing it, in the silence of the night we will always hear the screams……so this is our story….For we were soldiers once and young.”

~Joseph Galloway, Vietnam War Correspondent and Author

 

 

                             JoAnn Forrester

 

JoAnn Forrester is an author and business consultant. She has shared her thoughts on those days, and the aftermath.

 

Vietnam!

Vietnam, the war of the Baby Boomer generation, left a multitude of raw scars on our national conscience. A war, where 9.2 million American men and women served through-out the world, mostly during an eleven year period (Jan. 1, 1965 – March 28, 1973), as warriors and peace keepers. 

Of that number, 2,709, 918 Americans, or about 3.5 percent of the boomer generation served in Vietnam, leaving 58,228 killed, 304,705 wounded and 2,400 listed as missing at the end of the war.

For those who came home from the war…it really never ended. There were no parades, no thank you, no you did a great job…for most there was rejection, blame and hostility.  Coming home and adjusting to an uncivil world took its toll on our men, women and their families. Many problems resulting from PTSD and Agent Orange were ignored and/or denied by the Veteran Administration and US government thus creating more hardships that resulted in early deaths, suicide, disabilities, and alienation.

Slowly we have begun to deal with our past and try to soothe the wounds. Each man and woman who served has a story to be told and heard.

A salute to all that served.

~JoAnn R. Forrester

 

 

                      Major Michael O’Donnell

 

Major Michael O’Donnell was a helicopter pilot killed in action near Dak To, Vietnam in March of 1970. Although I did not know Major O’Donnell we were in Vietnam at the same time, and in some of the same places. This is a poem he penned several months before his death.

 

If you are able,

save them a place

inside of you

and save one backward glance

when you are leaving

for the places they can

no longer go.

Be not ashamed to say

you loved them,

though you may

or may not have always.

Take what they have left

and what they have taught you

with their dying

and keep it with your own.

And in that time

when men decide and feel safe

to call the war insane,

take one moment to embrace

those gentle heroes

you left behind.

 

~Major Michael Davis O’Donnell

1 January 1970, RIP

 

 

 

                                Jim Northrup

 

Jim Northrup was a U.S. Marine Vietnam War Veteran, a proud member of the Ojibwe tribe, a fellow author and a personal friend. He passed away in August of 2016. Shrinking Away is one of Jim’s many fine writings, I believe you will enjoy it.

 

                                    

                                            Shrinking Away

 

Survived the war, but was having trouble surviving the peace. Couldn’t sleep more than two hours—was afraid to be without a gun. Nightmares, day mares, guilt and remorse, wanted to stay drunk all the time.

1966 and the VA said Vietnam wasn’t a war, they couldn’t help but did give me a copy of the yellow pages. Picked a shrink off the list. 50 bucks an hour… I was making 125 a week.

Spent 6 sessions establishing rapport, heard about his military life, his homosexuality, his fights with his mother and anything else he wanted to talk about. At this rate, we would have got me to 1999. Gave up on that shrink, couldn’t afford him and he wasn’t doing me any good.

Six months later my shrink killed himself. Great, not only guilty about the war but new guilt about my dead shrink. If I only had a better job I could have kept on seeing him. I thought we were making real progress, in another 6 sessions I could have helped him.

I realized then that surviving the peace was up to me.

~Jim Northrup (Chibenashi) RIP

 

 

 

 

 

                                   Art Reagan

 

Art and his wife

Art Reagan and I became acquainted through my writing. Art pens many short articles himself. He is an avid historian and a very thorough researcher. One of his earlier works also appears on my blog. Art has shared some of his thoughts for our article:

 

“Vietnam is more than a country, more than a war. It’s the stuff 60’s kids are made of and will be till the day we die. More than anything else, it changed our culture and the way we think about ourselves. Let’s face it, there was a draft on and many young people—confronted with mandatory military service in a country no one had ever heard of—were unwilling to trade the comfort of familiar surroundings to defend a South East Asian country from the specter of a communist takeover. Since then, of course, we’ve all become experts at defending our views of the war and the recollections we are allowed to share.”

~Art Reagan, Vietnam Era Veteran, Veteran of the unseen war in Vietnam and Southeast Asia

 

 

 

                               Joyce Faulkner

 

Joyce Faulkner is the co-owner of The Red Engine Press. She is also an award winning author and long-time board member of The Military Writer’s Society of America. (MWSA) In addition to being my publisher, I am proud to have Joyce as a friend. Joyce shared this writing with us:

 

 

I was born to hate war. There, I’ve said it. You see, my father was a combat Marine who fought all thirty-six days of the Battle of Iwo Jima. His squad was killed off to a man, except for him. Twice. That experience colored the rest of his life—and most of mine. He had nightmares. He screamed in the night if my mother rolled over and accidentally touched him. He sobbed with pride and sorrow every time he saw the film of those guys raising the flag on top of Suribachi. He made me crouch down under the picture window lest the “Japs” shoot me through it. He beat my mother—and me. When I was ten, he planned to kill us and his parents. Fortunately, my grandfather and uncle wrestled the gun away from him and the cops put him in a straight jacket. He spent at least a year in the hospital writing letters filled with ghosts and anger and paranoia—and sent them to my mother. Inexplicable, unintelligible letters that she hid unopened in her jewelry box where I found them after her death years later.

   In the 1960s, I was a college student. Period. I didn’t protest the war in Vietnam, although an unending stream of friends, classmates and acquaintances did. That was because an unending stream of our friends, classmates, and acquaintances were going to Vietnam and an unequal number of them were coming home safe and sound. Throughout all of this, my philosophical explorations never veered left or right of center. Neither abyss offered much comfort.

   My interactions with young men making the transition from warrior back to student were sorrowful, tender and empathetic. I hung out with them. Held their hands. Listened to their stories. Grieved with them. Wrote about them. Welcomed them home.

   However, I had one rule. One absolutely unbreakable rule. I didn’t actually date service men—or veterans of war. Any war. 

   I had a horror of falling in love with a man like my father, who I adored, feared, and worried about day and night. Most especially, I didn’t want to wake up in the middle of the night to find my husband pacing the house with a loaded rifle. I didn’t want to find him in the bathroom crying until he threw up. I didn’t want to sit outside a hospital room while he had shock treatments. I didn’t want any more of that. No way.

   But then I found the perfect man. We studied together in the library. We both wanted to travel. We both were straight arrow kids. No guns. No smoking. No drugs. Okay, so he drank beer. Our dates consisted of dinner out, a trip to a hobby store to buy a model airplane kit, back to his apartment to watch Star Trek—and then the rest of the evening assembling and painting the model. The best thing about him was that he hadn’t passed the physical. You know. THE physical. So, eventually, with all of these special qualities, I let myself fall in love with him.

   We had been married three years and six months and were living in Japan when the letter arrived. He’d been drafted. He was one week from turning twenty-six. The bastards at the draft board decided “latent sugar diabetes” didn’t really exist so they reclassified him and drafted him on the same day. And we had to go home.

   I was terrified. I cried. I prayed. I begged. I threw up. But no, he wanted to go home and report. He really was a straight arrow, you see. It was Thursday. He had to report on Monday. He packed what he could while I sulked. We telegraphed the draft board that we were out of the country but that we were coming. Despite all the complications, we arrived back in the States late Sunday. In the middle of the night, we got a phone call from Japan. The draft board, on hearing we were hurrying home, had given him a break. He had ninety days to join something. We spent the reprieve arranging for our things to be shipped home—and joining the Air Force.

   I was still mad the day we showed up for him to enlist and immediately be sent to off to Basic Training. My fear—that I’d have to stay with my parents and endure my dad’s heartbreaking craziness again—was assuaged when my husband arranged for me to stay with his perfectly lovely and sane parents.

   He was the oldest inductee that day so he had to carry the orders. By the time we arrived at the airport, my heart was pounding.

   “Don’t let this change you,” I begged.

   “I won’t,” he promised.

   We were hugging when the plane taxied up to the gate. He tucked the envelope with the papers under one arm and turned to face the passengers as they came through a sliding glass door. The last passenger through was a business man in an expensive suit. Without a word or even a moan, he dropped his briefcase and fell against me…knocking me backwards. His head crunched when it hit the marble floor. Lying face down at my feet, he released his urine and died.

   I screamed. My husband dropped the manila envelope filled with all the draftees’ papers, rolled the man over and loosened his tie. “Sir? Sir?”

   The airline called for the inductees to board first. The young draftees gathered around the prostrate man, eyes wide.

   “Sir?”

   “Johnny, he’s dead,” I said to my husband.

   The airline called them again.

   My husband stood up. His face had already changed. He picked up the envelope and squared his shoulders. Then he turned—and with the younger draftees following behind him like puppies—went through the gate.

   I sat down beside the dead man, realizing that I’d already changed too.

   The loud speaker blared. A crowd formed around me. Some blurry someone tried to say something to me. His lips moved but I couldn’t understand him. I was still staring at the dead man on the floor, when paramedics hurried up and checked his vitals. “I’m sorry about your father,” one of them touched my arm. “He’s passed.”

   That got through to me and I cried—great, open-mouthed sobs—as the plane took off with my husband. 

   “That’s not my father.” I pointed at the corpse and blubbered. “I don’t know that man. My daddy’s a Marine.”    

 

~Joyce K Faulkner
Author of “In the Shadow of Suribachi,” “Windshift,” “Vala’s Bed,” “USERNAME,” and other books available on Amazon.

 

 

 

                                 Philip Caputo

 

Philip Caputo is a Vietnam War Veteran and an award-winning author. His book A Rumor of War is considered to be one of the finest writings on the Vietnam War. I am proud that Phil has shared this excerpt with us.

 

“Everything rotted and corroded there: bodies, boot leather, canvas, metal, morals. Scorched by the sun, wracked by the wind and rain of the monsoon, fighting in alien swamps and jungles, our humanity rubbed off of us just as the protective bluing rubbed off the barrels of our rifles.” 

 

~Philip Caputo, A Rumor of War

 

 

 

 

                                Ric Hunter

 

Ric Hunter is a Vietnam War Veteran, a retired USAF pilot, and a Red Engine Press award-winning author. His stirring book Firehammer has been widely acclaimed.

 

The Phabulous Phantom in Vietnam

 

In May of 1975, I was privileged to fly the F-4D “Phantom” as a pilot in the last battle of the Vietnam War. In that battle, I avenged the loss of my high school best friend, a Marine, killed by an NVA sniper near the Demilitarized Zone in ’66.

What’s it like to fly the world’s leading fighter aircraft against an enemy? This enemy was trying to kill some 150 marines trapped on an island in the Gulf of Thailand. Flying the aircraft at this point is instinctive, I can’t remember any particular inputs as I rolled it over on my back and dove at the ground at 500 MPH. What I do remember is making sure I had the weapon switches and gun sight set and above all—not wanting to blow any marines to kingdom come. They were at times in hand-to-hand combat in the jungle. That meant we had to get very close to the bad-guys, Cambodian Khmer Rouge of the “Killing Fields” fame. My wingman and I put 78 rockets and 20 MM cannon on the enemy and ultimately helped free those trapped marines.

The F-4 was a beast, and in the right hands was lethal. Over 5000 of them were produced by McDonnell-Douglas and the Phabulous Phantom was considered the “work horse” of the Vietnam War.

~Ric Hunter is a retired Air Force fighter pilot who wrote a historical fiction novel about this period in the war. It is entitled FIREHAMMER, and was nominated for a Pulitzer Prize. It is available on Amazon.

 

 

 

 

                               Jimmy Fox

 

Jimmy Fox, a U.S. Army Vietnam War Veteran and I became acquainted at a Veteran’s event some years ago, and I am proud to count him among my friends. Jimmy has penned several writings on the war, No Peace is an excellent one.

 

No Peace

We came home nearly forty years ago to a place that we didn’t know, and that didn’t know us. We tried our best to fit in, to go back in time, trying to return to who we were and what we had been just a few short years earlier. For most of us, it didn’t work. The world that we knew, and that thought they knew us, was no longer there, gone, along with our innocence, and a lot of our friends. Many things, and in some cases, people, that just a few years earlier had meant so much to us, meant nothing now—and the feeling was mutual. Often, the one who had promised to wait forever, didn’t… but we never knew ‘til we came home. Sometimes, even churches that we went to before didn’t want us sitting in the same pews with “good” people on Sunday. After all… WE had blood on our hands…Things like this are hard to forget, or forgive.

Our “before ‘Nam” buddies, the ones who didn’t go, weren’t anymore. The ones that would still talk to us just wanted to know what we had “DONE” over there. And then didn’t want to listen when we told them. They soon figured out that we weren’t puttin’ up with their bullshit, and stopped coming around. We had lost friends before… We tried to forget………

So, time goes by, many of us found someone who accepted us, and was willing to put up with our little “quirks.” Soon we had kids, a place to live, and in some instances, after many failed attempts, a pretty decent job. And, we had a dog. (him we could trust) It seemed as if we had everything we needed…………..We almost forgot………..BUT…….

But there was NO PEACE. There was NEVER any PEACE. Not really. Things were just never the same for us. Everyone always wondered why, but they didn’t really want to know. Some people said “If it’s that Vietnam thing, get over it. It wasn’t really a war, and besides it was a long time ago. Grow up.” Most people don’t deserve to know, most never will. We do.

The people we choose to let into our lives are either like us, or accept us for who we are. We seem to surround ourselves with others, who like us, also cannot forget, yet who we know we can forever, and always, really trust. Those that know what we are about, what is in our hearts, and that share the love we have for each other. WE WILL NEVER FORGET, that’s what makes us,………The Vietnam Veteran,……..
BROTHERS FOREVER

~Jim Fox. 1st Cav Vietnam War Veteran ’67-’68

 

 

 

                            Emily Strange

 

Emily Strange, a Vietnam War Donut Dollie, was a writer as well. She passed away in 2016. One of her close friends, fellow Donut Dollie Rene Johnson, was kind enough to provide one of Emily’s writings for us.

 

Donut Dollie

 

I flew to desolate fire bases
filled with the tools of war
and the men who used them.


It was my job to perform the miracle
of making the war disappear
(however briefly) for boys who had been trained to kill.


It was my mission to raise the morale
of children who had grown old too soon
watching friends die.

 

It was my calling
to take away fear and replace it with hope;
to return sanity to a world gone insane.


I was the mistress of illusion
as I pulled smiles from the dust and heat,
the magical genie of “back-in-the-world”
as I created laughter in the mud.


But when the show was over
I crawled back into my bottle
and pulled the cork in tightly behind me.    

~Emily Strange, U.S. Red Cross Donut Dollie, Vietnam War, RIP

 

 

Vietnam, 1970

Putting this article together was a very enjoyable experience. I am indebted to all of the contributors who took the time and effort to provide these writings.

~Joe

 

 

 

 

 

 

About the Author

Joe Campolo Jr.

Joe Campolo Jr.

Joe Campolo, Jr. is an award winning author, poet and public speaker. A Vietnam War Veteran, Joe writes and speaks about the war, and is a Veteran's advocate. Some of Joe's stories are gripping, some humorous. Joe also writes about other experiences, many of which are also humorous. Joe enjoys fishing, traveling, writing and spending time with his family. Joe loves to hear from his readers, please send him a note on this page or the contact page! (and order one of Joe's popular books from the link on his author page)

Comments

  1. Wonderful read…to understand how varied our experiences were…and how they influenced who we became…and what our country became because of us…Thank you for including me,

  2. I was brought to tears reading the posts here! I graduated high school in 1965 and many of my friends were drafted then. I prayed that they would return safe but some of them didn’t and the ones that did weren’t the same boys. I hated that war as most of us did and hated the way the guys that did come home were treated.

    I’m sad that this is part of our history and that it will live with me till the day I die. I’m sure there are many people who know how I feel.

    1. Thank you for your kind thoughts, Georgean. Us Veterans very much appreciate hearing from people like you. My personal experience regarding my return from Vietnam is also on this blog. It’s the story called “The Return”.

  3. I second Ric’s remarks, Great job Joe. All of these stories are quite interesting and Joyce’s experiences are indeed astonishing.
    A point of interest Joe, I Too am from Kenosha. Graduated Bradford in 1962 and left when drafted in 65. As they say, small world.

  4. Excellent collection of memories from a wide spectrum of participants. I was deeply moved by many of the poems and personal stories in your article. Joyce summed it up perfectly in her comment that that period of time affected us all and influenced who we’ve become. Great job, Joe!

  5. Thank you Joe for this compilation of stories. Ric Hunter & I were roomates as we started college and he led me to this posting. Though I did not go to VN I did serve in th USAF during that period. I saw the “edges” of the national rejection of the military at that time and my heart broke, and still does, for the way the VN vets were treated. To all of you I say, “Welcome Home!” “Welcome Home.”

  6. Joe

    I haven’t felt this good about being a Vietnam Vet in a long time. Your writing and the works you gathered taste like water in the desert.
    Thank you!

    1. Very glad to hear from you Tom. Welcome home! Thank you for your kind comments. I hope you enjoy some of my other blog stories as well…more on the way.

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